If their is a word i never use on myself, it is the word ‘bitch’. And if there are two emotions i can explain best it is ‘angry’ and ‘happy’.But let me just say today am feeling bitchy.And also ,forget the latter emotion.
I have been for sometime, snapping,shouting and screaming at people and then followed by a fake smile but a real apology.
Today ,I don’t feel like apologizing for any of that. In fact, I feel like being provoked and snapping even better.
If an Outlander was handy,I’d have cruised at 2ookm/hr on some lonely deserted high way, I’d hoot the world out of me.I’d drive on, and drive,and drive. Find myself at a karaoke night, sing and sing and sing the frustration out of my little impatiently patient soul. If I were Pacman no if Pacman was the ‘today me’ we’d have beaten Mayweather hands down.
Sadly i aint and got nothing of the above .So am at my study desk, hitting my keyboard hard,shouting,screaming with my fingers.That’s all i got . But am an angry woman for today. Don’t ask why, i wont tell.That’s being gullible . I can only control it.
As much as We don’t want to admit,the world is always about winning or losing,which makes it a contest. No one loves losing,neither do i . Winning is great,especially when you don’t have to choose the battles .
I don’t want to break it down. Think about it. Don’t give anyone a loophole,it might bring you down someday. On that note, I conceal reasons for my anger.